If you have a dagger that turns back time, what event/danger would you change?
This is based on a true story, a story that wasn't told to many people. It's about me, plainly me.
Looking at this question, the first thing that came to my mind was Dad. Yes, my beloved Daddy who passed away when I was only 11. Ten years down the road, although I'm at my adulthood, I don't deny the fact that I actually missed him a lot. The memory with him & his face is forever vivid in me. I miss you Dad, and I hope you're doing fine somewhere, somehow.
10 years ago, my family met with financial crisis, and all I see was quarrels after quarrels between mom&dad. Though I was only 11 then, but I had undergone so much - the stress, the tensions, the usual sobbing, shoutings, anything you can think of. It's never easy to cope with, especially when Dad comes home late at night, and the moment you wake up, you see Mom crying. Yes, that was 10 years ago..
I remembered the night, the last night that my brother last seen my Dad walked out of the door, and never return.
Now.. The burning question is, what event would I changed?
If only I'm stronger, if only I'm understanding, I could have changed Dad's thoughts of commit suicide. If only my brother knew what's going on, if only we communicate, we would have been aware of Dad's strange behaviours. If only we were older then, if only we were aware of what's going on, we could share some of Dad's burdens, we could resolve issues. Then.. I'll still have a Dad now.
If only.. If only..
The only thing I wanna change isn't him, but his mindset.
It's been 10 years, and I'm glad my family's doing fine, with supports from my relatives & friends. I have to say, I'm really fortunate to have a good bunch of friends going through thick&thin with me, my relatives for their care&concern, and my one&only mom for her love.
Words of advise: Cherish what you have now!
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