HEARTBREAKER

It's 7am and I can't get to sleep. There's so much thoughts in my mind right now.

Before you even proceed to read on further, please be warned that it's gonna be an emotional entry.

I'd like to start off this entry with a question for you; whoever is reading my blog.

This poll is created and posted here with a reason; it'll help to answer my questions, and clear my doubts.

It all started back when I was 15 years old. Back then, I do not have as much responsibility as I'm shouldering right now. All I need to focus was solely on studies.

And yes, I do have a couple of relationships in school, and it all ended pretty abruptly because of my irresponsibility. What is love then? I do not know. Even up till now, I'm still unable to grasp the meaning completely.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud. It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker. Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life. Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it. It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true."

I know I've created quite a bad name for myself, but many people still accepts me for who I am, and I thank you for that.

Like what I've twitted yesterday: "True friends does not care about what you are. True friends accept you for who you are".

I'm not here to create fame for my own. I just want to be someone whom my friends could rely on. However, my good intentions are often generated into misleading messages. Or perhaps, I shouldn't be too nice to people. Honestly speaking, I do not want them to get the wrong idea.

My friends, in fact, most of them say this to me: "The only reason why you couldn't find someone it's because of your expectation".

Come to think of it, what's wrong with having high expectation of my partner? At the end of the day, it makes me feel good when someone else compliment on my partner, and that makes my partner feel good too. Isn't it a win-win situation? I'm not being superficial here, but that's just me.

People asked me: "What do you go for? Looks or character?"

Sadly to say, I go for both. There's no right or wrong answer to that. Who doesn't want a good looking partner with a kind heart? Yes, it's gonna be tough to find. As what my friend says: "Love comes knocking at your door when you least expected it".

It's true, so true.

At the end of the day, I decide for my own happiness, and I always believe in fighting for my own happiness. I don't rely on fate, I don't rely on luck. I rely solely on effort.

All I know is.. these are the two traits that makes me attractive.

#1- My total randomness

#2- My character

And now you know what exactly the poll is here for, and this entry took me long enough to complete.

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